It's funny how things change in the blink of an eye...
I go...
From being a procrastinator to now being a super procrastinator
From going out every night to now being a house hermit
From spending my whole pay cheque to not spending any of it
From liking my work to hating it
From taking 100+ photos last month to having not taken any this month
From wanting to travel to now lose total interest
From not having listened to any Chinese music to having downloaded 1 gig of it
From being happy with everything that's happening to now doubt that
From losing every poker game to now win some
From being a good boy going to class to now skipping all my classes
From a phone bill that shot through the roof to now coming under limit
From feeling good about everything to thinking maybe the fun has now worn off
And really...
From constantly nagging people to go out to now realising that I should not disturb anyone anymore
From loving to eat to now forcing myself to because I haven't really the appetite anymore
From being on call to now being almost uncontactable, missing all my calls and msgs
From feeling well to now feeling slightly sick again
And from writing short blogs to writing a very long D&M one
[edit] - addition:
From moving on up to now retreating back again, going back to the boring mundane Ben.
Not Benny, not Benji, just Ben... Nothing cute, flash or cool.
And for how long this will last before it capriciously flips back the other way, who knows?
Mags
benny
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Variety is the spice of life, I suppose.. we all go through stages where we're all on one extreme or the other. But I think that it's due to the quiet periods that you realise how much fun you're having when things start getting busier (and more fun). Makes you treasure those moments for what they're worth.
I can empathise with the house-hermitness, hating work, and the boring-ness myself.. I feel like I've reverted back to who I was in high school again... and she was quite boring, actually.
But meh.. life's like that, I suppose. I guess that's why they say that life is a rollercoaster. You have your ups and your downs... and you just have to ride it out sometimes. Life is full of insecurities, and I guess to mature and develop we need to go through these stages.. we need to question what we're doing, who we are.. the things that are happening around us and the relationships that we have with people - and the outcome isn't always rosy, but we learn a lot from this process.
So.. on a random note, are you enjoying the chinese music? :P
Mags |
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 11:09:00 am
Ooh, Pang, let's go Star City... I'm in a gambling mood again =D
And on Mags' random note, I wish I had never downloaded the music. I can't stop playing it... =.=
On the rollercoaster learning process, I'd rather be on a real one right now... woohoo. Ocean Park anyone?
benny |
Thursday, September 14, 2006 11:50:00 am
From losing every poker game to now win some
ZOMG! since when did you play poker??
hehe, wanna head to star city for the $80 buy-in hold'em games?